Chussu's party......

Football meri jaan..

Someone said 'football is more important than life and death to you' and I said 'Listen, it's more important than that'. Yes thats what I also said to one of my friends when he asked me to come over for a movie on a sunday evening. And I think I will say that every time I have a game to play.

There are players and then there are artists in football. For the players football will remain a game. And for the artists it was never a game but a passion; an undying one. Actually only a man of the latter kind can understand what I am trying to imply. This is so because to understand this, one should have a ball on the upper left corner of his body dedicated to kick off for football.

Some of my real life friends who fall into the great category are sanky, pandit, DK, bacchhha, anurag, bhuppi, jhuppi, jassi, sugla, VNS, bony, fido, loco......

"soccer", "footy", "footer", "football".....many names, one sense "game on"

I'm still here

Sometimes the feeling is so great, so strong, so exhilarating yet so crushing............. I am stuck on this poem for the past 2 hours and still thinking to do something else.....move on....but I am still here.......
I been scared and battered.
My hopes the wind done scattered.
Snow has friz me,
Sun has baked me,

Looks like between 'em they done
Tried to make me

Stop laughin', stop lovin', stop livin'--
But I don't care!
I'm still here!

Enough.....

Ever wondered "how much is enough???"....well I have been forced to wonder over this intruging question for the past some time, in fact a long time and I can't even remember when I got even one satisfactory answer.

Maybe satisfaction is a momentary illusion, to fool a person. I think satisfaction became extinct at the instant a human was born. Or maybe Eve ate that too....;)

Getting back to "how much is enough???". Well we get to see a variety of people around us. Some rich, some poor, some like us who don't know where we stand. This is the fact, almost everyone, I mean almost everyone around me fall in this category. But 14 years of school studies, 4 years of college studies, 1 year into the job and I am almost back to square one. Like an infant watching the world around and wondering "Why all this??". I am getting my food, I am getting the weekly dose of entertainment in the multiplexes around, I have my friends around, I even have great parties in between. Maybe the zeal to do something is missing or maybe my enthu has gone hibernating.

The moment I think of buying a good bike like Bullet (Rs. 80,000), I think why don't I get a car instead. Maybe a Swift(Rs. 4,50,000) will do, sporty looks within my budget (budget is extended for the youth after the easy loans :) ). But then I think maybe some more earnings and I can got for a Honda City(Rs.7,00,000). But then again my eyes have been on Innova(Rs. 9,50,000) also. If Innova is possible then Ford Endeavor or Skoda Octavia (Rs. 15,00,000) are not far behind. And from the corner of my eyes I see many other options ;).......

Many things besides earning more have the word "enough" linked to them. I have said, "enough of drinking, now no more!!" and my friends comment:
"launda bigad gaya hai!!"
"Senti ho gaya hai!!"
"Galat baat hai...."
"arre kya ho gaya hai tujhe"

India's population is more than enough, news channels in India are much more than enough, corruption is enough, reservations are enough.....and now my crap has been enough....

a thought.....

The world is so empty if one thinks only of mountains, rivers, and cities; but to know someone here and there who thinks and feels with us, and though distant, is close to us in spirit, this makes the earth for us an inhabited garden.

arbitapa series: its like.......

its like hanging on a bed of burning coal, with nothing else to hold on but a
sharp sword. thoughts are there flashing in the mind but its too painful to even
think about then twice.

its like jumping from the highest point and just before touching the ground a
realization that maybe you should have told. maybe you shouldn't have.....maybe
it was all a mistake or maybe it was all just another illusion. maybe it wasn't
meant to be.

its like running away, away from all the confusion, and finding oneself deserted
in an endless world. every eye is staring at you, but the stare gives sympathy
and nothing else. but is it sympathy you were looking for. never........

Oh I planned it out!!

At last I two great opportunities to get out of the daily routine and get on a trip outside delhi. And yes, alas my "plan it out" (read the previous blog for details) can be boasted to others, now I can prodly say, "Oh I planned it out!!"

I went over to Amritsar and then to Agra. The trips were great and here below are some great pics from my digital shutterbug.

Amritsar 23 to 26 December





Agra 30 to 31 December